8 Apr

So a quick one really. Monday was my initial appointment with the local counciller to discuss my situation and possible treatment. I didn’t sleep. whilst I’m kind of okay now discussing everything with family and close friends seeing strangers is incredibly hard. Tossed and turned all night and eventually left to go.

Of course the meeting went okay, the preliminary thoughts were that I have anxiety as a primary issue that when left alone for too long creates ‘low moods’ aka depression. I’m not so sure about this due to my more manic episodes and talking to other sufferers I have some suspicisons.

The bad news is that there are long waiting lists in Nottingham for treatment at the moment and it’ll be two or three months before they can get to me. I got so bad after hearing that that I had to take the rest of the day off to destress. Have a self help book to work through but it doesn’t feel enough. I haven’t slept properly all week and it’s lucky that excercise is keeping me sane at the moment.

Hopefully I won’t need meds but I am seriously considering going back to the GPs to discuss it if things don’t pick up a little in a week or two. Two-three months is a long time when you feel this way. Black Dog has been loud and barking this week no matter how much I run with him.

On the bright side I ordered a new mountain bike! So hopefully have that for the end of the month and can go back to cannock chase for some off road fun… Maybe that will shut the bugger up.

Cannondale Trail SL 2

My New Steed (in a week or two) - Needs a name...


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